The Good and The Bad....
Madness
possesseddeath
Fucking Hell.... I just want to meet someone. Someone to go for a walk in the Botanic Gardens with.. Someone to lay under the moon with.. Its so fucking hard! My ex tells me she loves me then says other bullshit to veer me off. Its like she wants me then doesnt, then does, then doesnt.... etc. I await to meet that one person.... She will be good.. She will be mine..

I worship those of the Dead....
Madness
possesseddeath
Fuck.. Its been a while. A lot has happened and I cant say its for the better. My ex has just announced to me shes seeing someone else and this skewers my heart. A pain unimaginable. My little girl will now have some other fag in her life while I'm left with literally nothing. I worship the Dead. I want to Rest In Peace. Fuck everything. Fuck it all.... Whats the point?? The pain is unbearable.

The one "They" fear....
Madness
possesseddeath
I had a good weekend just gone. Got absolutely hammered and made everyone hide with fear. I have visions of Saturday night that I fell down and was getting violent with some people. hahaha good. I'm happy to hear that. Seems to me everytime me and/or my good mate Bender get drunk everyone gets trembled with fear and cant stand it. Fuck 'em, they're all soft. We're the ones that do the shit that they're all too scared to do. Everytime we get drunk, we get fucking drunk, where everyone else is all "nah I better stop drinking, I've had to much" or "my girlfriend thinks I should stop". Fuck that shit.

Another thing is I will tell my mrs what I'm doing, but wether she likes it or not is too bad. I answer to no one. She got angry because I made a last minute split decision to head out Saturday night (I originally had plans to stay with her and our daughter but she said she didnt want me to).. 
 
"Hate Them" is an expression I like to use frequently. It has helped me through some really tough times in life. It was an appropriate time to use this expression on Saturday night.... The expression comes from the album "Hate Them" by the band Darkthrone, of whom I discovered in late 2003 still in school. Fenriz(the man who creates most of the music and all the lyrics) is a great man who does'nt take bullshit from society and has a great attitude on life. He spends 150 days a year camping in the Norweigan forests all alone with no phone or civillization near him. That is Truly a remarkable thing to experience. I would love to do it. He even hunts his own food.. Fuck I'm lonely with no one to talk to hahaha.........

Cours of Death
Madness
possesseddeath
Well.... I'm in my course bored as shit because the part of the assessment that I'm up to is exceedingly fucking hard.... Some guy sitting in fron of me has a leather jacket and when he moves it makes an irritating sound, its pissing me off. I feel like smashing him. Was meant to get a car today but yet again it fell through as I thought it would. Claire wants me to pick her up from some birthday thing shes attending tonight but if I dont have a car how can I???? Exactly, ask her. If I cant pick her up she somehow gets angry at me and accuses me of not caring. So fucking childish and stupid. People keep telling her that our daughter takes after her, hahahaha I dont think so. I can see a lot of me in her. Every person that sees my daughter that I'm related to or friends with they always say how much she looks and acts like me.

Well, I'm going to head off now and make myself look a little busy then meet my mate for lunch.... See you all later

50/50 half good half bad
Madness
possesseddeath
Well well well.... I'm back. My course is going well and I have contracted a cold somehow.. Don't worry its not swine flu or any of that bullshit everyone is talking about. Lately I've been developing interest in Paganism, I'd like to read up more about it. It intrigues me. I've been observing natures finest achievements such as the creek near my home, where there is nothing but trees and birds tweeking. I really enjoy it. I often like to sit down by myself and just think about everything with nature on my side. It really helps block out the insanity and madness that is provoked within to go on a rampage.

This cold is extremely pissing me off. My throat and head is fine but my nose blocked and its fucking me off. It unblocks then blocks up again.. Fucking hell, I need some vicks or some shit. As matter of fact I might just go get some soon.

Didnt get to see my little girl on the weekend.. I didnt want to infect her with whatever I have. Probs wont see her for the rest of the week if this shit keeps up. Ive been invited to several birthdays this weekend but dont know if I can be fucked, its always the same shit. Got to enigma, get drunk and go home.. Complete waste of money and lifetime.

I was informed that my mates ex girlfriend(of whom they want each other back) is coming back from Croatia this week, so that should be a treat as my girlfriend gets along really well with her. So we might all head out to the Port markets this Sunday. AND!!!! I'm finally getting a fucking car this Thursday.. Nice Ford Falcon 98 model on gas. Well I'm heading off now to carryon with myspace and facebook business.. Adios

Warped.... a current unknown emotion experience
Madness
possesseddeath
I was in a bad mood earlier but since landing on this computer amongst the fucks that walk around me I'm listening to Scarborough Fair by Simon & Garfunkel.. And I have to say its really calming me down. I just suggest listening to this with a massive joint under a winters moonlight while camping away from civilisation, come to think of it I'm going to do it. Let me know if your keen(who ever you are reading this)  and we'll plan the trip. As long as I approve you as a friend. 

I'm looking forward to a great weekend with some good buddies of mine.. Saturday night will be full of drunken maniacal, malevolent Madness.. Fuck this song is so good, its uplifting my spirit....

The Madness
Madness
possesseddeath
Well the weekend is over and once again I'm here back on the public computers.... Saturday night was crazy, I met Dani Filth of Cradle of Filth, and althought I'm not a fan of the band he is a good bloke. As memory serves he even shouted me a beer or two. I saw my ex girlfriend there and she was acting as though we were together....???? I told her after some time had past that I didnt want to touch her because we are not together.... Then she gets all angry at me.. Fucking Hell women are confusing. I drank near half a bottle of Slate bourbon and countless beers. Its nights like that, that make me proud to be a madman, a True Refuser. Its people like us that do things that others(majority) are too scared to even consider. Hail Refusers!!...............................................

Just another day..
Madness
possesseddeath
Another typical day.. Full of scum cunts ruining it. Money hungry oblivious bastards with no clue how to live life the True way. Current now ex girlfriend is ignoring my messages therefore no contact with my daughter and no way to see her.. She thinks I should be a plumber or some trade bullshit.. Fuck that, I do what I want, when I choose. I aint a slave to no one. Had an appointment today to enroll in a Myob course of which the government will pay for so I don't have to work for my unemployed benefits.... Hail Inquisition and Broken Hope.. The music which is always there for me and supports me no matter the condition I'm suffering in....

Dead and oblivious minds....
Madness
possesseddeath

I can't believe the force-fed cum that society swallows like a whore as we crumble and slowly rot.. I love this world more than anything, but by that I mean the planet not the beings that consume it with their shit. I have constant legitimate dreams of upholding a sniper rifle on a building and aiming at complete utter random people going about their daily business.... I see faces of people past and present that I hate, yet no passion to kill them.... Only bloodlust for the ones of whom I have no idea who they are and reall dont care....


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